She closed her eyes and let the water hit her forehead. Her breath grew heavier as felt a lump in her throat. She couldn’t move an inch. The cold water made her body numb. For a moment she didn’t feel her own body. She worked herself in the laboratory of the mind and several thoughts were bouncing off the walls of her mind. A decision has to be made. And this decision could change her life forever. She held herself tight and wished otherwise. A gentle tap on the front door brought her back to reality.
She wrapped herself in a bathrobe and stood in front of the door and took the longest breath. She gently opened the door and left speechless when she saw him. He held her nape and kissed her cheek, ‘hey babe’
He dumped the groceries on the refrigerator and grabbed her by the waist. She was gazing at his feet while he kissed the top of her head. She bit her own lip while he stared at the ceiling as his chin rested on top of her head.
“I am the luckiest guy-” He was interrupted
“I am pregnant” – she cried out loud.
His grip loosened and with that she felt insecure as their bodies separated. The eyes met, one pair longed for an approval while the other was still trying to blink!
She waited for him to speak.
“I am- , I don’t-, How-, didn’t we, did we?-, I can’t believe-, I am not sure” – words fell off his mouth
Her heart sank! She held her breath for a minute to process what his next words are going to be. I won’t be able to. . . and the train of thought was interrupted again!
“But” – he continued
He held her hands and looked into her eyes.
“I think I’ll never be ready for a responsibility like this. If you think that you are ready, I won’t stop you. It doesn’t mean I won’t be there. I want to be there and I want to see you and me raising this little muffin. If you are not ready for this, I wont stop you” – he touched the belly and gazed into her eyes.
She was unnerved. The greatest dream realized? She looked deep into his eyes and felt a twinge of guilt. She hugged him and blurted out –
‘Thank you, But -‘
“No more buts hon, we’ll see our family doc in the noon, we shouldn’t delay” – he said detaching himself from her
“Yes, but hear me out-”
“I got fruits and milk and some veggies” – he continued as he headed towards kitchen.
She bursted out laughing. He turned his head to see her laughing uncontrollably!
” Babe!!!, you ok?” – he rushed towards her.
“Yeah, Yeah, I am alright”
“What’s going on? Why are you laughing!? Tell me” – he was getting anxious.
“Yes, I am happy and I can’t tell you how much do I love you for this” – She couldn’t find the right words, as she fell silent
” I don’t understand, why are we on the floor, we should be more careful” – he lifted her up and held her by the waist while she rested her hands on his shoulders.
“I’ll get the cat out of the bag now,please don’t be mad at me. I know you’re excited about us becoming parents but honestly, I am not pregnant and I did this to test waters. I can’t be sorry enough for luring you into believing this but this is the truth. I am sorry. Now that I have your trust I want us to become parents soon” – she said while she stared at his Adam’s apple.
“Honestly, I was immensely happy about you becoming a mother but if you ever think that you are ready, I am there for you and this prank might have made you less reliable, congratulations on that. But never plant such pranks on me. I can’t handle it. Also we need to get ourselves checked once before we try again” – he left the kitchen without waiting for a reply and grabbed the jackets and keys.
“Get dressed up, we are leaving-”
” I am pregnant” – she said and the tone became serious and she didn’t move!
“What? Are you serious? Why are you messing with me!? Please tell me. Don’t freak me out” – he was out of breath
” I am serious! And I am pregnant, had you not said you were ok with having a baby, I’d have aborted but you don’t know how happy i am right now and can’t wait to raise it with you. I am sorry I had to do this. I wanted us to be absolutely sure before inviting alot of happiness and troubles at the same time. I am not asking you to be OK with it but I’d like to know how you feel about this without which I won’t consider anything unless you are all for it. Take your own time. I am happy with you and there’s no reason we shouldn’t be raising this little muffin.” – she sounded more confident with each word.
He took a long breath and stared out of the French window. He took a long stare at the unknown.
“I have no reason to not this muffin come out of you. So it’s a Yes for me. I don’t want you to abort. We’ll manage I am sure” – he nodded.
She barely had tears in her eyes and while he walked up to her and planted a kiss on her forehead. They hugged. She felt home and he felt responsible for the first time.